17 Now

I'm 17 now .
Well , going to be . (Date today : 18 Dec 2013)
I'm in the second semester of first year in Polytechnic .
Its fun .
Even more fun than my previous school days , to be honest .
Tutorials instead of homework .
Lectures instead of class .

A lot of things has happened .

If I was still my childish self , I would literally post every single thing that has happened to me for these past years , word for word .

But I won't now .

Because I'm lazy .

I got into the Directors' List . That's shocking .

The Directors' List is a good thing , if you don't know .

I have changed when I entered Poly and I'm not sure if it's in a good way or bad way .

I feel a lot more confident and relaxed , that's for sure .

My Poly friend indirectly told me I looked arrogant and inapproachable as her first impression of me .

Now , that's good news to me ! (Sense the sarcasm)

Another thing that changed is how I look at people .

Its just that recently I've started to appreciate beauty in others .

Be it guys or girls , I can see how handsome or pretty they can be . For some ,I think that if they added a bit more effort , they would look irresistible .

I know i'm not in the position to judge others but , in my own defence , I look at their pros .

For example , if I see a fat girl , I don't guess her weight , instead , I take in how great her hair , makeup or outfit is .

Do I still feel insecure ?

Not as bad as I was before . I feel great now actually .

Some things don't change like my lack in CCAs .

My first goal in Poly was to do well in my studies .

Once I've done that , I may reconsider joining a CCA .

And judging from my Directors' List achievement , I think I am doing well in my studies .

When my friend asked ,

"So are you going to join a CCA now that you've managed your studies ?"

Hell no .

I've gotten a lot lazier lately .

What else ?

I can tell you that there are plenty of charming lads in school .

So charming .

I've gotten myself a few , what people call them , "Eye Candies" .

Lectures are never boring with them .

But even though I like looking at them , I don't expect a relationship at all .

I'm satisfied at looking from afar .

I sound like a stalker right ?

Well , its your fault for misunderstanding ;)

I'm not as desperate as I was in secondary school .

Really...i'm surprised too .

In secondary school , where the male population is made up of boys going through an awkward stage of their life , I get crushes easily and madly .

I...was...pathetic .

If only I could travel back in time and facepalm myself while shouting ,

"You're just wasting your time , idiot ! "

Now what ?

Well , I will continue to study hard to aim to get in the Directors' List for the second semester .

Now that I have it in the first semester , everyone is expecting me to do well now !

Parents , teachers , classmates .

Everyone thinks i'm smart now .

How do I break it to them that i'm actually not ?

I was just lucky .

I sound like an annoying brat now , right ?

My level of arrogance is increasing by the day .

Sorry .